"I’ve held my breath from the moment the fertility specialist said I’m pregnant. I tried my best not to show my fear bc I only wanted to put positive energy out for this sweet baby boy growing in my belly.👶🏼🌈," she wrote in the post.
"With each pregnancy milestone I felt more and more confident we wouldn’t lose him, but I never felt 'safe' to just let all my guards down…which unfortunately prevented me from truly bonding with him.😔 ."
She added, "I’m really hoping to deliver my own son. I want to pull him out and bring him up to my chest and just LOVE on him.🙏🏻 I can’t wait to smell his newborn scent & stare at the wonder of his tiny toes. I am so excited to have a home birth and have the opportunity to have the calmness of my own home so that I can bond and connect on a deeper level with our baby Hayes.🙏🏻🤰🏼👶🏼🌈."
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In April, Otis told PeopleTV that she and Hehner, 36, decided to have a home birth because “the pros outweighed the cons.”
“You learn in nursing school that the safest place is the hospital to have a baby because then they have everything there handy, God forbid [an emergency] happens last minute,” Otis, who is a labor and delivery nurse, said.
Hehner added that the couple “did a ton of research” on home birth before making their decision.
“The fact that I may or may not be able to be a support person at the delivery in the hospital [and] what do we do with our daughter if I can’t leave the hospital?” he said. “At least with our house, we know it’s a more controlled environment.”
Otis and Hehner are parents to daughter Henley Grace, 2.
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